How It's Going
Saturday, July 16, 2022
Cold Water Covid
How It's Going
Saturday, July 9, 2022
The War Next Door
I've been in a war. Wars are horrible. But I am currently in Romania for the month of July and I was wondering prior to arrival if I would see any evidence that I am next door to a war.
Romania shares a border with Ukraine. I actually illegally entered Ukraine briefly many years ago. We were on an excursion in the Danube Delta, at a place where a river divides the two countries. We crossed the river to the other side simply so we could say we were once in Ukraine.
The somewhat high-ranking Romanian border official who was conducting the trip told me it was a bit reckless to do so, since being found there even in the remote possibility that Ukrainian authorities appeared on the scene would have meant that I, a former Intelligence officer, would be detained for probably some days while they sorted out that the incursion was harmless. We did it nonetheless, by my insistence.
But I think back on it now, in light of Ukraine having its sovereign territory invaded by another country and I am ashamed I did this. It was, in principle, wrong. I mean, sure, it goes onto the long list of things I have done wrong in my life, but it was indeed wrong and I own it as such.
I was downtown in Bucharest yesterday. I half expected to see a number of US soldiers there. A few thousand extra US soldiers have been stationed at bases we have here in Romania as part of NATO's ramp up of forces to show Russia we are willing to protect our eastern front. I thought that some of these US soldiers might be showing up as tourists in the downtown while they enjoyed time off from duty. But the fact is, these bases are nowhere near Bucharest. They are probably enjoying Constanta and the Black Sea coast, not the charming downtown of this city.
Evidence that we are next door to a war is not completely non-existent however. We invited our neighbors Vali and Virgil out to our favorite pizzeria here. Working there right now is a Ukrainian refugee named Svetlana. We had met her a few days previously while inviting another friend to that spot. Svetlana speaks no Romanian and very broken English. She works very hard while she is all alone here in Romania. Her only family is a mother still in Odessa. Trust me, she is not stealing a job from some Romanian. The staffing shortage/crisis is as bad here as anywhere.
She is late 20's, very blonde. And she doesn't really ever smile. Under the current circumstances, you can't blame her. With her broken English, we had been able to learn her name and her situation. But last night while she was clearing our table of plates, my wife told our neighbors her back story. And my neighbor Virgil, knowing they don't share a common language wanted to express solidarity with her. He put two fingers below his eyes, drew them slowly down, signifying tears, then touched his heart and pointed to her.
She said, "Thank you." Virgil does know what that means. And she smiled.
This simple yet profound gesture of sympathy for another person moved me greatly.
As a priest under the Patriarchate of Moscow, I pray at every Mass "May this sad fratricidal war speedily cease." The unwillingness of my Patriarch to speak out against this war is, in my opinion, a moral failing.
A look at CNN right now does not acknowledge that there is a war in Ukraine. And so, I set out into another day next door to that war--a war I fear is barely discernible anymore outside those borders I once also breached.
Saturday, July 2, 2022
Watching Fireworks Across the Lake
Growing up in Madison, Wisconsin, watching fireworks for our family meant taking blankets and heading down to Lake Monona to find a spot to spread out at Hudson Beach and watch the fireworks display across that lake. I would estimate that these were shot off perhaps two miles from where we and so many of the neighbors sat to watch this. This was so far away that in fact, if you were to stretch your hand out toward them, you could block the entirety of the show from your vision. But we loved it. We "oohed" and "aahed" as we saw them. We always knew that at the end there would be a dramatic finale of multiple fireworks. When it was over we all clapped.
The way my life evolved, I would watch the amazing fireworks display at the National Mall in Washington DC on July 4, 2002. My twin brother, mother, and aunt were there for the show with me. We had to go through airport level security. I had just two weeks earlier started work as an Arabic linguist at the National Security Agency. There were vague unsubstantiated hints of threats against the event. I could not tell my family about that, and I went to the event with them anyway.
While visiting the Capitol a few days later, my mother could not continue walking and after getting her to an emergency room, we would learn she had the congestive heart failure that would take her life four years later. My father would follow her in death two years after that. My younger sister would follow them fifteen years later.
The way my life evolved, I did not see another fireworks display for twenty more years. I was either too busy with work, or on deployment outside the US, or then, after I left government service, in my wife's native Romania on the 4th.
Just yesterday, with the generous invitation of the father of my friend's boyfriend, my wife and I found ourselves on the banks of Lake Hopatcong here in New Jersey. In conjunction with a barbeque, we watched an amazing show, set off only half a mile at most from our position. This meant that I was watching glorious fireworks filling my field of vision.
You have perhaps heard of this concept that fireworks noise is triggering for "Vets and Pets." My friend's dog hides in the closet whenever a thunderstorm is happening, and she has shared with me poignant pictures of the poor creature truly scared by the noise. So did the noise of the fireworks remind me of the times I ran from mortar fire while on a deployment in Iraq in 2004?
Of course it did.
Just a week or so ago, when watching Top Gun: Maverick in the theater, only upon watching a plane explode, I suddenly thought, Shit, today is June 24. It's the day my life in Mosul Iraq changed. I heard and felt that day a deep thud. I told the CIA instrument technician working with me, "Did you hear that?
"No," he said.
"Something just blew up in the city," I said.
And I was right. What would follow was a coordinated al-Qaeda attack of car bombings.
Everything was more dangerous after that day. I ran from two mortar attacks directed at our base. I would be the target of sniper fire. But I would survive my deployment and go home.
And so, as I watched those fireworks yesterday, I tried to remind myself--those are fireworks. You enjoy fireworks. Those sounds are not mortars. It has been twenty years since you saw this. And this is fun.
And it was. When the final flourish was over, I was not thinking of Mosul. I was thinking about how so many of the people with whom--much deeper in the past--I watched fireworks across the lake--are gone.
I miss them, but I smiled and very much enjoyed that show.
Friday, July 9, 2021
And May Her Memory Be Eternal
My mother, who died in 2004, was a terrific bowler.
We know she had a 600 series. If you don't know bowling, that means she once bowled three 200 games (or the average thereof) in a three game set.
We know she didn't ever bowl a 300 game, a perfect game of 12 consecutive strikes, but a 600 series is a very significant accomplishment.
I also know that she picked up two very difficult splits--what is known as the Big Four and also the dreaded 7/10 Split, a nearly impossible feat.
When she bowled in leagues she had a vest with patches certifying the three significant accomplishments I have described. For frequent bowlers, such patches are like the medals on a military uniform. If you saw someone with the 7-10 patch, you would take notice that you are in the presence of greatness.
The reason I am talking about these things right now is that I am spending a month in my wife's native Romania, and going bowling at a local mall has become a nice way to spend part of the day here.
And as I have been bowling, I have been increasing my own score by remembering advice she gave me over the years. A few years back, here in Romania, I bowled my highest game ever--a 205, and crucial to achieving that was remembering at a key moment advice that my mother gave me. I tell the story of that game in this video.
And this got me to thinking that I don't know what my own mother's actual highest scoring game was.
My father, who bowled in leagues with her for many decades, has also passed. I asked my living siblings, one of whom also bowled in leagues with her for some years, and he doesn't remember. He knew the information about the 600 series, and those two splits, but does not remember the high score. Obviously it was good, somewhere way up in the 200's. But the exact number of it is now officially lost.
I am taking this kind of hard because I know this is a fact of history that at one time was extraordinarily important to someone. Someone important to me.
But this information is gone. This saddens me and I have to let this go, but I decided to write this post just to acknowledge it all.
So here's what we can assume. Getting a 600 series means you score a high percentage of strikes across three games in a row. Like anyone, she had days that were better than others. But there must somewhere in there have been a day when an even higher percentage of strikes managed to land inside of one specific game. Again, we know she didn't get a 300, but a score beyond 250 seems almost certain. Past that it becomes purely speculative what that best game could have been.
So I content myself with this thought. I wasn't there, but I know what the scene certainly must have been. It would have happened some evening when my parents were bowling in a league. Something like every Thursday night. And the first game was just a warm up. But let's imagine, in the second game, she had a run of strikes. She left a pin standing at some frame, but she picked it up for the spare. Some more strikes. I remember her always saying that a strike in the 9th frame is crucial to higher scoring game. She got it. And when that game was over, her team and the opponents were congratulating her and were happy to have even watched this terrific game unfold. And she knew that she had just bowled her highest scoring game ever. Whatever that number was, it replaced her previous best game.
This new number would remain her best game until her death. And she thought about that game from time to time. For a number of years before her death, her health faded in such a way that bowling at all would be impossible. And that itself sad because of how much bowling had meant to her in her life. But she still always had the memory of that highest scoring game.
I put together a pretty decent game myself this morning (I use the name Andrei here in Romania). If things had not fallen apart in the middle, it would have been a 200 game. Indeed, it was more than a 100 in the 5th frame.
And I can never bowl without feeling close to my mother.
Tuesday, April 20, 2021
Dogs as Pets in Ancient Israel
Dogs are mentioned significantly more throughout Hebrew and Christian scriptures. There is a word in Hebrew for a domesticated dog (keleb; כֶּלֶב), distinct from the word for wolf (ze'eb; זְאֵב). The fact that the Arabic cognates for these are the very same word with the predicted phonological differences (kalb; كلب and dhi'b; ذئب respectively) is proof that domesticated dogs had a relationship of some sort with Semitic peoples from very ancient times.
So even though the dog was not mentioned throughout the entirety of the story, we are to know that the dog was always there behind the scenes.
Thursday, September 17, 2020
Why You're Seeing So Many Dead Squirrels on the Road Right Now
Anecdotally, people are reporting seeing an unusually large number of squirrels, hit by cars and killed, on the road right now.
I killed one myself just this morning on the way to work. This happened in the center lane of an interstate with three lanes going each direction. That squirrel had no business being there!
And if I had attempted to avoid running over that pool fellow, I would have endangered myself and everyone around me.
So here is my theory. All of the squirrels born in the Spring reached maturity at a time when there was basically no one on the road. They became quite accustomed to going anywhere they wanted with absolutely no repercussions.
It takes squirrels 14 weeks from birth to their adulthood. So the timeline checks out.
Now, just in the last couple of weeks the number of cars on the road has increased dramatically. The return to hybrid education, which is the reason I have been on that highway for the first time since mid-March, is just one example of why. Indoor dining has also recently be resumed here in New Jersey.
So these young squirrels have been doing things like running across interstate highways and other roads for months, and almost all of them have lived to tell the story of why there's no reason not to do it.
Until now.
Tuesday, August 25, 2020
Learn a Language with Dr. Massey
Saturday, May 16, 2020
COVID-19, He or She?
I stumbled upon the interesting issue of the French Language Academy (L'Académie Française), charged with authoritatively issuing rulings on the proper use of that language, formally declaring that COVID is feminine, not masculine.
People all on their own had been saying "le COVID" as if it were masculine. But L'Académie has pointed out that the term COVID-19 refers to the disease caused by the virus (maladie provoquée par le corona virus). As a result, the whole term hinges on the word maladie, which is feminine. As a result, the acronym is feminine and should therefore be referred to as "la COVID."
Granted, there has been a lot of imprecision in the use of the terms describing the virus and the disease. Properly speaking, the official name of the virus itself, whether it is on a doorknob or in someone's lungs, is SARS-COV-2 (Severe Acute Respiratory Syndrome Coronavirus 2). It is the disease caused by the virus that is described by the term COVID-19 (Corona Virus Disease 2019 [the year it was first documented]).
So the French Language Academy is certainly correct about what the gender of the term COVID ought to be. They cite as evidence for their case the acronym CIA (in French Agence centrale de renseignement). Since the term ultimately refers to an agency (agence), and every French speaker knows that agence is feminine, it is la CIA, not le CIA.
The reason I suspect that the French Language Academy is fighting a losing battle on the COVID front, however, is that knowledge of what exactly that acronym is describing is not exactly common. I'm a fairly well educated man, and I admit I googled all this to double check it while writing this post.
So French speakers were assigning the term COVID masculine grammar simply because the acronym, turned into a pronounced word, has nothing that would have suggested feminine.
I decided to conduct a linguistic experiment. With no background as to why I was asking, which might have invalidated the response, I asked my Romanian wife this morning, "How would you say, in Romanian, 'COVID is bad'?"
With no hesitation she replied, "COVID e rău," using the masculine form of the adjective. I asked, "So the word COVID is masculine?" Her response, "Yes, and the definite form is COVID-ul." (-ul being the suffix on masculine nouns to product the definite form "The COVID").
If there were a Romanian Language Academy, trying in vain to prevent the tsunami of Americanisms from currently entering Romanian, they would have the same argument as the French Academy. The Romanian word for illness, boală, is feminine. (It is an apparent Slavic borrowing, cf. Russian bolnoi [больной].)
From there, Google searches confirmed that the rest of the Romance Language world agrees with the instinct to just make this masculine. It is:
Spanish: el COVID
Italian: il COVID
Portuguese: o COVID
So time will tell whether L'Académie Française will have any greater success in winning this battle than they have had in stamping out the term Le Week-End.
Sunday, May 10, 2020
The Story of the Novel "A Place of Brightness"
I am married to a Romanian-American and, as school teachers, we spend our Summers there (though unfortunately not this Summer, due to COVID-19).
In the Summer of 2010, while we were in Romania, I happened to see on the television a story about how, in 1962, the Communists there finally managed to crush an anti-Communist insurrection that had struggled for some years against the government.
And the Communist government had kept any knowledge that this insurrection was even happening completely hidden and secret from the vast majority of the populace, lest they share such sympathies and rise up as well.
The insurrectionists called themselves "Haiduci," which is a Romanian word that originally meant "Bandits." In areas mainly in the mountainous Carpathian regions north of the capital city of Bucharest, they carried out acts of sabotage against Communist interests.
But in 1962 they were finally crushed, and widespread knowledge that they even existed did not come to Romania until after the Revolution of 1989.
So I found myself imagining, what became of these insurrections that maybe managed to escape notice or escape Romania at that time. And so in my mind I began to picture the final mission of a family of Haiduci. And the characters of A Place of Brightness came to life.
I grew up in Wisconsin, but, having studied Arabic for my PhD, I served at the National Security Agency for four years after 9/11. During that time I was awarded the Global War on Terrorism Civilian Service Medal for my service in Iraq in 2004.
For full authenticity of emotion and experience, I used certain characters of my novel to process some of what I had gone through. The main protagonist, Andrew Valquist channeled much of that for me. My middle name is Andrew and I made him experience what I had--a tour in Iraq.
I gave him an identical twin, Stefan, as I also have an identical twin, Kevin. Forging dialogue between the twins was therefore a very natural expression for me.
Interestingly, while Andrew was my original doppelganger, so to speak, my life has evolved to become more like that of Stefan. He is a Romanian Orthodox priest, and I was ordained a priest in the Russian Orthodox Church just two years ago.
The phrase "A Place of Brightness" comes from an Eastern Orthodox prayer for the dead. That the dead would be in "A Place of Brightness, A Place of Greenness, and Place of Repose." I imagined that these Haiduci, virulently anti-Communist but still also practicing Orthodox, would feel the tension between their Faith and their Mission. And so I envisioned them as praying thus for those they were about to unfortunately kill in their pursuit of a free Romania.
I won't give any spoilers to the story. When a second generation descended from the Haiduci return to their ancestral land, they will be pulled into deep danger and intrigue that somehow goes back all the way to the events of 1962 when the movement was crushed.
Read A Place of Brightness for the rest of the story...
Sunday, May 3, 2020
A Latin Language Version of "Here Comes the Sun" - Latin Teachers Greet their Students During Quarantine!
As I was nearing completion of the music side of a Latin language cover version of George Harrison's "Here Comes the Sun," the idea struck me that the video version needed to be a way for Latin teachers to greet and encourage their Latin students as we all struggle through this unprecedented experience of Distance Learning.
With the help of Meghan Kiernan, who is a better connected Latinist than myself, I received enough video clips to forge what I think is a nice tribute to this moment in time.
Following the names of contributors, I include an explanation of my translation choices that went into the Latin lyrics for the song.
I thank all who participated in this project: